uhm...okay, well i just got off the fone with my sister, i was telling her about my dad, i kinda feel bad for him, and I'm wondering how the fuck im gonna get home...here's the story

Janice is pregnat with lucky num 25**, thats his fiance...i havent really slept in my own bed since thursday night..., My dad picked me up, blah blah been hanging out with him and my brothers...6 of em, they got in ANOTHER fight..and the weddings in like...2 and a half weeks..., we drove to santa maria or watever and thats where we are now, so after we ate adn everythign they started going at it..so secretly she packs up all the stuff...puts everything in the car my dads NEW TAHOE...dvd player n everything installed, personal telephone number and fone in the car, on star and all that mess HIS CAR she takes it..thats my ride home..and takes her precoius lil shit anthony..and leaves...then calls from the fone..so here we are...I'm about 7 hours away from home...maybe more who the fuck noes..my dad has a place in hawaii but his flight doesnt leave till tomarro so where is he gonna stay till then? uncle rene's? maybe...so he has custody of 4 of my brothers cuz Rosie there mom deserted them, left them without food and water...tryed to kill them...so CPS gave them to my dad, who noes maybe he is learning responsibility...so anyways...where are the kdis gonna live they did live with dad and janice..but janice just called and said that the new car is hers, she just said she kickced teh kids out of the house and when seh gets home she is throwing everything away..so my brothers are homeless as of now....my bro felipe is trippin out like a mo fo...my dad says he is gonna take them to live with him, so i guess he is gonna buy them a ticket...but mayn...so much to be thankful for right...cept..i dont have a ride home, im stuck somewhere in the middle of cali with no ride, but a comp..hehe...and my dad doesnt want me to call my mom and ask her to pick us up...pussy...watever...im anoyyed..gramps was getting mad at dad earlier cuz he was like...YOUR DYING...SUPPOSED TO DIE BY CHRISTMAS NOW WHO IS GONNA TAKE CARE OF UR GOD DAMN KIDS YOU FUCKED U[P NO ONE IS GONNA WANNA TAKE THEM AND MARRY UR ASS BEFORE U DIE..yeah..so i had to vent and call my sister..i got pissed...i derno...i lvoe my brothers...i dont want them to be all..hurt and stuff...i duno...this is all thrown aroudn...it might be a lil confusing to read...

anyways..wat the hell am i gonna do? nothing..exactly..im just a kid right? im sick of this BS..watever

I was happy cuz my cuzzo ashely called, I'm at her house...she isnt here she is like..5 hours away from here..i mean hello...u live here..ur not here adn u new i was gonna come to see u today...everythings going wacky isnt it..im trying so hard not to cuzz..anyways...nice talking to her haha she is a senior now..so happy for her..she is suposd to be a junior but she is gradutating early..see thats wat i wanted to do...me and her were supposed to grad at the same time..damit she took home school..like i wanted to do and did 2 grades at the same time..and then sum..dam..she grad. thuis january haha ok...this was my plan we both decided..i was gonna be homeschooled and do that ...but .......my dad said...NO HOME SCHOO....wat kind of parent is that? so we made a deal..i bring up my grades from last year..and turn in all missing work for this year..i get to transfer to vallejo high like i always wanted..o yea..one other condition i stay in sports haha my dad was saying today...my gurls are like men...haha cuz he has like...20 boys and only 2 gurls me and chris...and crystal is purty tough...mean...she fights alot of dudes...and i guess im a tom boi..nto as much as i used to be...but haah yesterday my uncle and dad and cousin were choopin and sawing logs u noe like wood so they can put it int he fire place...they gave up..i took it and sawed it..i felt like such a super gurl...haha its the puerto rican in me..cuz i got healla pissed and picked up the saw and did it..and they couldnt..my dad was like O SHIT..we got anther one...and my uncles were pi9ckin on my dad adn my dad goes..u better watch out..ill get celina to beat u up..haha i had the biggest smile on my face..i think today made me remember why i am the way i am...and why im not supposed to change...i derno...i want to play baseball all my brothers do..i used to play, football, soccer, volleyball, softball, and now im finally in basketball...i played about every sport i havent been out of one since i was like...2...my dads so proud of me...except for..the pregnat thing...that will never happen again i can guarntee..haha..i dunno...

the boys were pissing me off and giving me the guys are tougher than gurl shit..so i kicked there ass..showed them hehe..im not jsut any gurl im my daddys girl and right now i couldnt be prouder to be wat i am..that prolly doesnt make any sense..anythign i just wrote but right now i dont care...byez..happy easterly turkey day!